2020

"You decided how do you live your life."

"I don't even believe in myself, how can I decide what's good for me."

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Time always move forward. No matter what, we can't redo anything we did in the past.

Past.

One hour ago, one minute ago, one second ago, already count as past.

Do you ever worry that you waste every second in your life?

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It's raining outside. Sometimes the wind blows, making those small branch knocking window's outer glass. The sound of branch knocking windows, rhyming with thunder sounds, making little musical show in Huang Enru ears.

Huang Enru sit in the corner of her sofa, hugging a white dress with empty stare.

She have a lot things running here and there inside her brain. Those thought been accompanying her, along with the thunder sounds since a hour ago.

"What a waste of time,"

Huang Enru turn around, greeted by a warm kiss on her forehead.

She didn't reacted.

"I don't like how you waste your time just to decide nothing,"

That person, Qing Yuwen. Jump then sit in the sofa, beside Huang Enru. Easily put her hand around Huang Enru's shoulder, pulling her closer to her embrace.

"We gonna die anyway, just do anything you want."

Huang Enru stay silent, deep inside her thought. Qing Yuwen let out a sigh. Her hand begin to play with Huang Enru' hair.

What a weird atmosphere.

They stay still like that, untill the rain sounds slowly faded away. It's not late yet, some people still walking outside, doesn't care about dark house where Qing Yuwen and Huang Enru live.

"Aren't you hungry," Qing Yuwen put her other hand in Huang Enru' cheek, checking in case she's crying.

No respond from Huang Enru.

Qing Yuwen left hand reach her smartphone on her pocket, dialing someone then order several food for dinner.

"You looks so lifeless."

Qing Yuwen took the dress that Huang Enru hug, throwing it away. Without asking, she pull Huang Enru along with her to lay down in sofa.

and still hugging her.

"I don't know why you kept that dress when all that thing do just make you suffer everyday. Don't you have another thing to do? Another plan?"

No respond.

Qing Yuwen let out a sigh, again. It's the nth night after that incident and Huang Enru still can't move on. She blame herself, a lot. She always think she's not enough, she's the reason why bad thing keep happenining to other people.

The sound of clock tickling, filled this small living room.

Brak!

Suddenly their front door opened, showing someone with several plastic bag in their hand.

"What the heck I come to both of you cuddling like this every night, if you just want to mock my singleness just stop it," Ge Siqi put those food in front of them, "I was knocking but no one responded, did you guys too absorbed in hugging each other?"

"She don't even hug me back," Qing Yuwen slowly get up and approach those plastic bag.

"Oh, thats bad. Should I congratulate you?"

"No, thanks."

Huang Enru left both of them to her bedroom.

"Still no further info?" Ge Siqi take out her smartphone, pretend to scroll notifications when she actually don't have.

"Nah, I trying to make her speak but no words come out from her mounth since a week ago. She was fine talking with me untill I bring that topics."

"That's bad. You know I can't wait anymore to smell death."

"Be patient," Qing Yuwen replied between her activity chewing some french fries. "Who knows what waited us ahead is a big win for us."

"Yeah. Thanks to Enru killing her beloved girlfriend just to catfish our biggest target out from their cave,"

"Mind your words, she could have hear this,"

"She won't care anyway," Ge Siqi throw her phone away then joins Qing Yuan eating those foods.